A Poem - Definition of Me (c) Melissa Indot 2017

When everything you thought you knew, means nothing and nothing at all
When all that ever defined you, gets thrown at you like a ball
When memories appear in your mind, as nightmares that replay
Haunting every corner of you, taunting you day by day

Confusion leaves a trail, like chemicals in the sky
How will I ever get through? How will I ever get by?
One moment I am soaring, high like an airplane
The next my tears are pouring, flooding like heavy rain

The anxiety twists and turns, inside my fragile gut
I look up high above me, I can't escape this rut
There is no sign of an exit, I see no way to leave
I guess I'll sit in this moment, until it's time to grieve

There is no real escaping, this recurring scary dream
And nothing will ever be, the way I thought it seemed
I trust one day that this, ache will ebb away
Happiness will get to share, with me another day

This too shall pass says the ink, upon my shaky wrist
It's time to live life full, without taking silly risks
Although I feel sick inside, with fear paralyzingly me
I remind myself to be calm, I remind myself to breathe

My vision is grey and blurred, no images appear clear
My hearing is very muffled, what is that sound I can hear
My head is spinning around , an eternal spinning top
When will this anguish end, when will this fortune stop

So one day I know I will thank, the Gods and guides and you
I managed to sit through pain, that lead to my powerful truth
Gratitude will overflow, my vibrant beating heart
Because it was borne from love, my sobriety is going last

- Definition of Me, 21 January 2017 (c) Melissa Indot